The road to full confidence in myself is a long one, one that will take a while to complete, but one unexpected experience that contributed to this, was my first year at university.
I always dream big in life, especially regarding what I want my career to look like. Something which people tell me is impossible or an unrealistic outcome, isn’t to me, because I always believe why should something be impossible? Why can’t someone achieve whatever they want? Life would be bland otherwise. Chasing a big dream is both exciting and terrifying, and sometimes you doubt yourself and second guess whether you believe you can actually achieve it.
Why can’t someone achieve what they want?
University was never the ambition for me, I never dreamed of going or really wanted to go, it was a bit of a last minute decision. It was a kind of a, ‘I don’t really have another option’ decision, but surprisingly turned into a ‘I wouldn’t have done it any other way’ outcome. I currently do a journalism degree, and I remember the first time I saw the assignments list for the year and thinking how the hell am I going to do all of this. Seeing that we had to find our own stories, contact people and interview them ourselves, create material I’d never done before, was a real ‘have I made the right choice’ moment.
You know what they say, ‘great things never came from comfort zones’, and I now firmly believe this, because my first year at university basically forced me to burst my comfort zone bubble and never go back. Leaving my comfort zone has always been a struggle, I’ve never challenged myself that much or put myself in difficult situations, apart from when I got my first job, but that stories for another post. Challenging yourself changes you for the better, you grow, you find things out about yourself you never knew before, and you surprise yourself, because I certainly did. I look back at the assignments I did, the portfolio I built, and the things I’ve done and I’m surprised at how much I’ve grown in a short amount of time, and that I did everything on my own.
Challenging yourself changes you for the better
I can now say that my belief in myself has grown, and if I hadn’t taken that leap and applied for university, I wouldn’t be me right now. I’m not saying I’ve found confidence, but I’m certainly getting there, and developing with every step outside my comfort zone. For the first time I took control of situations, I didn’t rely on other people to help me out, I planned and completed everything myself, which is just insane in my eyes because I never believed I could do it.
A quote which I found the other day said ‘if your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough’, and it really resonated with me because in a way my dreams do scare me, but maybe that’s a good thing. Pushing yourself, doing something you never thought you could do, and taking that step away from your norm could be that missing piece, and it could lead you to amazing things.